So its been slightly awhile since the last post. At first I think there is no real reason why other than time just totally flies by. Though, truth be told, during this time I have had a dramatic decrease in my access to the Internet. A life long procrastinator, I look for anything else to do other than what needs to be done. This has been where the blog comes in in part, because it is SO much fun, way more fun than whatever I "should" be doing. So for the sake of my job I had them disable my access to the Internet in my office. EGAD! I know- how utterly horrific! It got bad, folks, real real bad.
But this lead to an unexpected change. When my access decreased and I had to turn elsewhere for entertainment/firefighting, when I did have the opportunity to surf, or blog, or facebook, it felt...different. I can't explain it. Its just like its not the same anymore. Part of me feels more private, I think about things to blog and then like a little kid who has a thought of sharing a toy, instantly snap my hands back and scream "No, MY TOY!!!" or in this situation, "No my life, MY thoughts!" This surprises me the most. I have lived and continue to live a pretty "open book" kind of life- even to my husbands chagrin. So why now would I feel this way. Am I...changing? (insert every eerrrr?, huh?, what?, really?) Me of all people.It continues to spill over. This year for our anniversary I CHOSE a night at home with Jeremy cooking vs. out to eat all dolled up at a nice restaurant. Again on a recent trip out of town with the opportunity to go out to a bar and enjoy a night out I really contemplated a bottle of wine and a night in. My sweet, introvert husband pushed for (and won I might add) the night out.
So I'm not sure what came first, the internet decrease or the chosen isolation and privacy but either way both remain.
Please don't think that this is a "good-bye blog" post. Its more just a way to explain the absence in the only way I know how- honesty. I'm just in a cocoon for now and I know shortly I will emerge, with lots to say and share but for now know that things are good.
Until then.
